BEFORE AND NOW

Before………….
When I close my eyes, all I see is you.
When I close my eyes, nothing else appears except you.
I felt a joy, I felt ecstatic
I felt blissful, I felt rapturous
It was an euphoric feeling that I can’t resist to loose

Now………………
When I am awake, I only see you
When I m conscious, you are the only one that appears .
As though the pupils of my eyes had carved you
As though my visual lexicon only recognizes you.

I am happy, I am elated
I am on cloud nine, but then;
I am worried.

Of not be able to share in my life,
Of not be able to have you and only you.